Hi, I'm so sorry you have had to deal with this for so long. When I started this thread I never thought this would effect so many people. I have always felt so alone, like I was in some way a freak for feeling this way. In a way it makes me feel better that I'm not alone but I also feel sad that all of yall have this monster too and I wish I could take it away from everyone and make yall stop hurting from it...if that makes any sense. It's also nice to meet you too. Hugs!