Hi Belle, thank your for the reply. as a matter of fact i do have an appointment with my T in last week of march, i am desperately waiting for it. i was also thinking about going back to india for 2-3 months and just spend time there, learn yoga, and just get away from cell phones, facebook, the whole thing. i really need a change of scenery and absolutely have to get out of this. past year has been the worst of my life. and i don't wanna keep living like this. thanks.