Hey Aimeesh! I haven't seen you around lately (I don't go to all the forums, so I may have just missed you...), I hope you are doing ok. I've thought about you a few times and wondered if you were alright.

I understand feeling jealous of a sister. You can feel happy for them at the same time. I wrote a huge long response as to why I am jealous of my sister, but I felt like I was hijacking your thread, so I made my own! Anyhow, you are not alone. And it doesn't make you a bad person (at least I don't think it does).