My sister is my only friend (besides my husband) but she's very domineering and our relationship is very one sided. Admittedly, that's because I don't tell her much, because she's very close minded about MI.

My brother is in prison for armed bank robbery and the only time he contacts me is when he wants to manipulate me to get money for whatever illegal crap he's doing at the time.

My other brother committed suicide when I was 18 (he was 16).

I love my siblings and I think the loss of my brother makes me soft when it comes to dealing with the 2 of them. Its like I constantly am aware of how easily I could lose them, so I tend to let them run over me so that I still "have" them for the time being. Its so stupid.

Really, I let everyone run over me. I never stand up for myself and end up being committed to things that I don't want to do, but am stuck because I never say no.

Ag. This was way longer but I cut most of it out. I'm mostly feeling sorry for myself. Thanks for reading.