I woke up crying. I dreamt of SO many people last night, and I was yelling at most of them for not understanding my illness. My mom and dad, my sister, my grandma, my childhood friend and her family, my ex and his family...and my dreams are always so vivid and real! I wouldn't be surprised if I talked a lot in my sleep last night.

I think the dreams were triggered because I talked for a long time on the phone last night with my cousin; we have just recently gotten back in touch and we went to elementary school together, so we were talking about things that happened in the past and we were both complaining about family members who don't understand us and don't try to understand us (she doesn't have a mental illness, she has a physical illness - spina bifida and kidney failure stage 3 - and she is in a wheelchair).

So I'm feeling a little more depressed today and I'm really tired since I didn't sleep well; I toss and turn a lot when I have dreams like that. Plus it's cloudy and rainy outside so that doesn't help either.