Thanks, guys. No more news as of right now. I really wish I could see her but my bf said that he saw his grandma in that situation and wishes he had a better last memory of her. My dad said the same thing. He went to see his grandma in her last moments and now he can't think or talk about her without having that image, even though it was 40 years ago, fresh in his mind. They both said, she wont know who I am, hospice is with her, it wont do anything for me to go see her except upset me and leave me with that image of her. They both said to just pray for her and think about the good times. But I feel selfish thinking that way. Is that wrong?