Been there.....done that. I have done a very similar thing...but I got a pillow to yell and hit with a rubber bat. I guess it did let me get some feelings out but for every hit on it I took I thought about how I should be hitting me. How I was the one that deserved it. I didn't tell that T how I felt. She had me do it on my second visit. Thinking back on it ....I can't believe she asked me to. I quit going to her