{breathes} today I feel depressed. I want to do something bad. But I'm looking forward to Friday when I see the T again. I'll see him at 11 same place. I just don't know though. He asked if we're doing okay and if there was anything we needed to talk about. He's so kind. I don't know how to express myself and figured I'll just spend the rest of the week trying to figure it out. Maybe make a list if I'm motivated to do so.

After writing this out I feel like an empty shell. Am I dead?