I terminated today. Of course I can always call T if I need him, or if I just want to, but my weekly sessions are over.

It all started a little over 3 years ago. My life, and just about everything in it was destroyed. After being hospitalized, I realized I needed to see a therapist, as much as I didn't want to. I got T's number from a friend, left a message, and he called back a few hours later. I had my first appointment the next day and his kindness made me go back, week after week.

I shared my trauma, I shared my withdrawal from meds, I shared my fears, and my loneliness. I shared my relationship troubles, my family dramas, my work issues, my health issues. I slowly opened up, let him in, and allowed myself to heal.

T says it is 'appropriate' that I terminate. We've both known this day was coming for a while, but today I woke up and didn't want to go to therapy. I always want to go, because it is such a safe place. But, now that the trauma is healed, I just don't really need him anymore. And, I finally accepted it was time to let go. Time to create some space for newness in my life.

I cried. I'm sad, but I'm also hopeful.

I wanted to share with all my PC friends, because this board has been a big part of my success with T. The experiences and stories and words of wisdom and feedback have all helped me to keep going and keep trusting. And, maybe most important of all, knowing I wasn't alone.

Thank you. Thank each and every one of you for being a part of my journey.