My father is under hospice care at home. A nurse will be there tomorrow to check him out. I also will be going out there tomorrow and maybe will get a chance to see the nurse myself. Hopefully she will check out his blood oxygenation. If that is okay, I will not worry. As far as pain goes, from what I understand he has some stomach upset but not extreme pain. My brother-in-law is staying there now. He has the best chance of anyone to make sure my father is doing okay. My mother thinks she is doing the best thing for him. Her main mistake is thinking she can make him well. They have been married for 67 years, and she is not ready to admit this is terminal. My father is claustrophobic and could not stand to be in a small hospice room. On top of that they are dependent on each other emotionally. Separating them would only cause much emotional pain. I just hope my mother will recognize that he is terminal and try to make him comfortable and not well. Rather I am very frustrated with what she is doing, but I also recognize my father is where he really wants to be. He loves being at home with large windows and many trees, and most of all being with my mother.

I got really upset this morning when she said the oxygen was making him breathe shallowly. He is breathing that way due to his illness and probably needs the oxygen to maintain the best functioning possible. Sometimes her approach can make me want to yell and try to wake her up to the reality of his illness. This in turn makes my own problems worse. Thank God I do have my T and Pdoc.