Hello cruensludus,

There is some dependent and co-dependent issues here. Good job on communicating. This may be tough to get a perspective because your primary models, father and mother, seem to have issues. Please see if you college has counciling if you are still enrolled, if not I would seek out a councilor in the community. I think you will find that going it alone will give you strength and then you will make friends and not be alone. I recommend getting some guidance, you are worth it!