I know.. ribs heal, leg heals, ill walk again soon enough
its just the suspension... that feeling of doom you know will come down on you again... you just don't know when, you don't know how, what who where..
The only thing you know is that at some point something will happen again
And im scared... I'm scared to start feeling better again... everytime that happens... i get beaten up or r&ped again... I may get older, I mag get to live on my own, i may go to university but im still no match for 3 guys, or a gun or whatever.
In the meantime i'm scared.. waiting... Nightmares flashbacks panicattacks ...
i'm done finished empty.

I wish they would just fricking finish their job already. I'm tired. I don't want to anymore. Get it done and over with.. please...