Don't be embarrassed, Sunflower. Go ahead and do what you feel is right for you.
Oh, I so understand about being oversensitive. If I detect anything ambivalent in the other person I start thinking, "What have I done?" Never that they are preoccupied, upset for whatever reason.

Pachyderm, the magnificent therapist was warm, kind, funny, self-deprecating and told me that he had exchanged a prestigious job in a major city to start a therapy practice in our small town. This was to reduce stress on him and his family. That admission of fallibility endeared him to me instantly. I jotted down quite a few things he said to me and have reviewed them frequently. I would walk out of the sessions feeling like a $million. If had told me dandelions would make me better, I would have eaten them and they would have worked.

As for the other two (rotten ones)
#1 was a pompous twit who lectured me on mental illness like it was a course for simpletons. He stood up and wrote on his chalkboard and I sat dutifully watching.
#2 was a woman who started name dropping people in our community and making personal comments about them and asking if I knew them. Next she told me her life story. I listened dutifully.
I could make no connection with these two. You have to feel that the therapist cares and wants to help.

There are many people here that I feel a connection with even though we are just typing words to each other and have never met.

My greatest belief is that in therapy a therapeutic relationship/atmosphere is created so that we can heal ourselves.