Thankyou everyone for your kind words. Yes I have a counsellor and am on Meds.
Rohag you asked what happened, Nothing specific just burnout I guess. I have had two months off work due to ill health ( Cardiac ) and I guess my heart is just not into it much anymore (pun intended) The staff are all whingy amongst each other its just not pleasant atmosphere anymore and Im so tired.
But again Thanks for all your responses