thanks byzantine. i m just counting the days upto the appnt.

i have a question tho, how can i stop caring and thinking about it/her. it still make me wonder if she is happy with the new guy or not. what she is doin, how is her school going. does she ever think about me...

to tackle this problem, i been just keep me distracted 24/7. seriously from 7 in the morning till 4 i work, and i try to stay busy as much as possible. i get home around 5 and as soon as i get home i either go riding or i start playing video games and play till 9-10 with dinner in between. as soon as i am done playing that, i go to bed.

with this schedule i hardly get any time when i have to think about her. i know this is a very lame lifestyle. i have sooo may plans for my life and this is definetely not the way i wanna live for rest of my life. i have big big hope for my T and starting meds. and hopefully (if i can get time off work) go to india for 2-3 months and just starting over...