It's an Escape, but not death? Wanting to do it and actually doing it are really two different things. Is it a selfish thought? Yes, I know that it is. Would I actually leave my kids for someone else to take care of? Nope. I could never do that, unless I was dead.

Sooooo...I'm sorry that I offended some of you. I appreciate your concern for my children. If you had read really carefully, you might have seen that one of my concerns is what my illness might be doing to them.