Well if you are crazy, then I guess we are in the same club! Birthdays are always difficult for me as well. As far as making deals with yourself I have made plenty with myself. I made the same promise to end it if life was not better by 30... I got a dog the day before. You can make it trough, and i would not worry about wanting to stay young it is all a matter of the mind anyway.

As my grandmother says.. she is a 20 year old trapped in a 92 year old body.