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Thanks guys,
I really needed to hear your words of encouragement etc....
My life is nothing compared to some of you guy's lives... I am trying to survive and beat this depression.
Well I am unsure what I have as a diagnoisis as my GP hasn't really said. My GP had said last month she thinks I may be a hypo-manic which is on the Bipolar Spectrum... but now I am unsure. My counsellor says she thinks my GP thinks I have major depression.
I really enjoyed the open space work... she had never done it before and it was kinda like a weight lifted off of me as there was all this space to look out into. Where my counsellor is based is on the coast across from my town. Looking out onto the water you could see my town but to the right was nothing but sea and sky and then to the right of that a forest. I manily focused on the forest with occassional glances straight in front of me to the "new workd" out there of sea and sky.
I hope I can do this on Friday too?? Maybe you never know.
I still have the notion(s) of never getting better and I have asked all my friends/my GP and my counsellor and they have all said I will in time.
A lot of my friends have studied mental health at uni or college so they know more about it than me at times. I am worried as my best mate asked me to say to my GP about a psychologist... The waiting list is 1 year. So I asked if there was anyone else I could try and my GP suggested a psychiatrist. I am really scared though. My mate says I am just thinking of the stogma associated with psychiatrists. She thinks I NEED a psychiatrist asap. So I guess my GP will discuss it on Tuesday when I go back.
Today I have felt really good esp after my session..... Its 110am and I am still wide awake. I am not tired. God don't you just loving taking a sedative which doesn't knock you out haha!!!
I don't know what my GP will put me on next??? I have had Prozac and then Mirtazipine so don't know whats next
I am just worried about the side-effects as I never had any side effects off of the Mirtazipine tablets.
Hope you guys are all well... well as well can be!!!
THANK YOU AGAIN, I REALLY NEED PEOPLE WHO UNDERSTAND ME TO LISTEN AND HELP ME OUT.... YOU GUYS ARE A LIFE SAVER FOR ME
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