As I mentioned in another post, some worker in a cubicle seems to think I can do so much more (work & hours) because I'm intelligent and can bathe myself. It's so absurd to set goals for people you don't even know. I get suicidal every year too and it's all I can do for the months that the major depression happens to get out of bed and try to stay out of the hospital. This guy seems well meaning, but he's overwhelming you to the point that you don't even want to do the program at all. I think you should ask for another caseworker or else tell this guy that he's suggesting too much too fast and you're thinking of quitting the bar is already set so high. That's what I would do. People can think they're being charming or encouraging when in essence they're drowning you. It's okay to admit you're not ready for any of that.