I feel all screwed up inside. I feel like I'm in almost constant emotional pain even if it is a small amount. I feel like my attack has ruined my life. It has left me afraid of everything. It drains my energy. I hate dealing with this in T. It leaves me drained and feeling so bad after T. And it is bringing up so much pain and awful feelings. And I don't know where they are all coming from. I feel dirty and awful all the time now. I want it to all go away. To go back before we started talking about all this painful stuff. I just want to pack it all up and make it go away again.