my abuse happened when I was 7 and lasted with other family members until I was 12 UGH .... I am now 47 and working in therapy for the past 3 1/2 years to get past this.............but it HAUNTS me soooooooo...... I want it to just go away...........but I have to work through it step by step and my T has said some people take longer then others to work through the process....
the more we talk about it in Therapy the more flashbacks I am having and it is scarey espically when I smell something and I ask others around me do you smell the same thing I smell and when they say no it freaks me out........my brother always worked in trucks and smelled like desial fuel and I smell it all the time......scares the he*l out of me....freaks me out so much.........I just want it to all go away but it is not that easy.....I remember too everyday of what happened to me and by who and I cant get the tape in my head to stop....UGH your not alone at all...take care