I know how you feel. I like it inside .. I feel safe here. I do not WANT to make new friends.. in fact I do not like to be bothered by the few that I have.. not close friends but people I know... they have given up on asking me to go anywhere at all and I am glad of that. Home if confort to me and at the same time I look out at the world and wonder how can they be so active and do things.

I sleep all day and night is peaceful for me.. no calls, no mail to get bad news, no bills to have to look at, no erronds to run, no make up or hair done that I have to feel bad about for not doing during the day.

I need help but I think that how in the world can anyone look insisde my body and soul and tell me not to feel this.. it is me...I have panic attacks also .. i think that is what triggered the whole depression thing..I didnt realize it was depression to the extent that it is until recently.

I hope that you and hubby are happy. I think your help has to be with you first. The husband can relate to how it makes him feel but can not relate to your inner soul and mind due to he can not FEEL it as you. I can tell you that what I think is good for us all is baby steps.. i just can not seem to take that first step.

I wish you much peace soon and all of us.
WHAT is this caused from.. childhood is what I am assuming.