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Why can I not lift my mood I seem to spend so much time
hurting these days I am wondering if I made the wrong choice
to leave after all I mean its not like I have this great wonderful
fantastic life at best the only thing I don't have is people saying mean
and cruel things to me.
I have very little time to once again find somewhere to live
by whos hand mine I am so unhappy where I am with all the voices
I can hear and the smells and visions etc they are driving me mad
but ultimatly I am driving me mad I want so desperatly for these
tears to stop and yet I just
can't seem to dry them all up sometimes my tears are outward
other times I cry silently within so as not to disturb or upset
anyone else the doctors won't let me have a stay in the hospital
and even if they did they say all someone with depression needs is
one day in the mental health unit....At least thats their "care plan"
for me pffff likethat helps anyone,why am I whinging for man geez
I have oh sooooooooo much going for me pfff.
Going to sign off now before the tears start again.
Thanks for taking the time to read this
I hope you can make sense of it
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"Look at me, I'm a tangled puppet--I might be a mess, but I sure can survive."
--4 Non Blondes
"We don't create a fantasy world to escape reality, we create it to be able to stay."
--Lynda Barry
"Years Teach Us More Then Books"
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