No, you're not stupid, Jax. I've been thru the wringer so many times with disappointment, thinking, "Why does this person not feel as devoted as I do?" It is my nature to want to share and care for someone; I suspect you are the same. At present, I am enjoying taking care of just myself. I haven't lost faith in humanity, but at the same time, it is important to establish a solid "self" foundation. Don't give up!
Seeker