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Fuzzybear said:
Agreed..... I so relate

grrrrrrr
Fuzzy

I HATE needing help
I HATE asking for help
I HATE being judged

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You are so not alone! I know exactly how you feel! Seems like I've been "living" here too long and I just want to go home. I sit, and I try NOT to think, NOT to feel, NOT to do anything to make the pain worse. I'm on welbutrin for about three weeks, and started at 75mgs, and yesterday the doc upped it so I'm waiting for the higher dose to kick in. For me, that week or two every month when "Aunt Flow" is in town is the hardest because right now for example the meds do not feel like they are working. I know they are because I'm just barely able to function and "the montser" is still locked behind a door.

When is this supposed to end? When can I have A life again? When do I stop having to fight the pain all the time? Can I go home now??? Please??? I'm a good girl, I've always been good and I want to know, need to know, why I'm being punished this way???