(((((tree)))) I'm sorry you are hurting so much.
I'm so glad you are seeing T today.
I'm actually surprised that you haven't considered the possibility that you may be depressed before this, it seems like it's so common with people with a history of trauma.
I'm also really glad you already made an appt w/your pcp. You are doing what you need to do to take care of yourself, which is HUGE when you feel so horrible and miserable the way you do right now.
I'm so sorry, I wish there was something I could do to help you feel better.
Just keep breathing, keep knitting, keep looking for those little things that don't hurt. And keep posting, we are here for you.