I understand and do know how this feels. I mean how many times can we be expected to struggle and pull ourselves out of the black hole? It's exhausting. I'm not sure people, even our T's, get it.

Mine says "there is always hope and you won't always feel this way" which is absolutely true. SOmetimes though I get very angry at him. He and his (what I perceive to be) perfect life lecturing me about hope.

What the hell does he know about hope?

Anyhoodle, when I get like this, it sometimes helps to not even think about feeling better. Not even try actually. Just take every moment as it comes. You don't have to do anything but just make through the next minute, then the next one. That's it. Maybe in the minute after that you'll reach out again (or not), maybe you'll fix yourself something to eat, or go for a drive.

Just one minute at a time.

You'll make it. Somehow, someway we always do.