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Last night i went to hospital again to Have stitches in my arm and i was not phased at all when i cut myself i do it real deep and panic and scare myself but last night i didnt even care i was just staring into space when i my dad was calling me it was like i came out a dream..I keep getting horrible headaches from crying and if something bad happens i think everything in my life has changed ??????
I keep having horrible thoughs and i force myself to think about them they make my skin crawl but i keep thinking about the thoughs of insects crawling on my leg and once i even saw it i feel like a phyco
I dont know what to do I did not see my therapist i dont think anybody can help me i think i will get sectioned
Im really Phycotic i wish i was normal i really really do but sometimes i think im normal but then i get these thoughs and moods and i know im just a phyco..!!
sometimes i cant even be bothered to cry im such a mess.
I cant belive how much i have ruined my life and what i have tunred out like i hate this so much ..!!!!!!!!
Self harm is the only thing tha makes me feel alive..and i Have to take the pain or i am real weak i am so mad .
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