Don't trust me. I'm not worth trusting.

I'mseriously struggling here. It's too much for me. I have a week before I see the psychiatrist and I don't even know how I am going to get there let alone talk. I am increasingly fragmenting myself into the "social" me and the "real" me. The "real" me is lost, alone, afraid. If only I can find the way to close her down, to only have the social me, maybe I will survive. And yet I am scared that I will see the psychiatrist and convince him / her that there is nothing wrong with me.