" He said that maybe I did all of that work, and now here are the feelings, and after this will be the movement."

sounds like your t is very wise. i think he is onto something. often, we self medicate (w/food, alcohol, drugs, etc) to push away the feelings. now you are alone with the feelings and that is hard hard work. i don't think there is an easy answer, just time and therapy.

i'm in a similar sort of place. in between my sessions, i try to continually reframe my horrible thoughts, "this is just my negative thinking taking over, it's not who i am," or "they don't hate me, they are occupied with something else, it's not about me."