Aww Mark! I feel that way alot too, That I made alot of mistakes and Lost The most precious things in my life but we have to keep fighting, theres always tomorrow and maybe if we take little steps at a time, we can rebuild our relationships and things have to turn around right?? Im always here to listen friend, So post away, this site is wonderful and everyone is supportive of each other, its a family here, We care about you.