I don't know how I think I should react. I just know that the first time I talked to her on the phone, it triggered a whole series of memories about the SA which resulted in a relapse of both drinking and SI.

I hope I can see her and separate the present from the past. But I'm worried that seeing her in person may be an even bigger trigger than just hearing her voice was.

I'm thinking of carrying a small stuffie in my purse that I can squeeze to help ground me if I start losing it while I'm with her.

--splitimage