I've not SI in about 1 month. My usual form of SI is cutting/burning/hitting. Lately I've been getting very strong urges to use a drill or saw on myself. Not something I intend to do, but the urge us crazy strong. I want to "accidentally" cut off a finger tip, or drill into myself. I imagine the relief I would feel. I am holding off, because I know how much damage that could create. These very violent urges are new, though, even though I've SI for over 12 years, on and off. My deal with myself was to not cut/burn. I didn't even consider saws or drills. The thoughts simply won't go away. Makes me feel so crazy.