The cutting hasn't come to a stop yet.. No one knows yet. And I can't stop SIing.. Yet. It started with mere shallow cuts on my fingers and then over time, it somehow came to be on my arms.. "Someone will find out eventually." thats what I keep on saying to myself but I still can't stop. I'll promise myself that I'll tell someone so I decide that I can cut as much as I want before they take it all away from me. But I never do. I need to stop before I ruin myself forever. I have a cut "across the street" on my wrist that I keep on cutting again whenever it scabs over. Yesterday was when I started seriously thinking about comitting suicide. And now today, the thoughts are even worse. I have been thinking about how to kill myself.. I mean, I don't intend to hurt others around me... But it's just the thought of SI and suicide that makes me smile, I actually smiled when I found a razor to cut with. I don't want anyone to take it away. Sorry for dissapointing everyone. I am trying hard to stop. I'll figure it out..