You aren't alone. You sound just like I used to. That's exactly what I used to think everytime something would happen in a relationship. I am happily married now. Something I thought would never happen for me. Just don't try to hard and you will find the right man for you. I found my hubby when I was least expecting it. I always thought something was wrong with me too. Especially in high school. I didn't have my first bf until late in my 10th grade year. Just don't push to hard and the right man will find you. Remember, it's not your fault even though men try to make you think it is. Hang in there. It will get better!!
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