dear tree,

Can you get your hands on a copy of Judith Herman's "Trauma and Healing" ? Maybe yr T has it and can loan it to you?
once the traumas have been told, and the telling is pretty much at an end, there is a phase of mourning that is gone through, that may be where you are now. She says, you have to come to the realization that you've been a victim, and that this victimization has had an impact on your life.

Once that has been processed, you can get to the next phase which is more healing than anything else. In the current phase it's so important to keep seeing T - he needs to guide you through it -

I don't know if this helps, it did help me a lot.
hugs to you dear Tree