Hang in there, I am sure we all have had those days. I am just discovering triggers that I did not even realize were present, and my coping skills have left something to be desiered.

I had to work from 8:00am to 12:00am on a project at work, I was already cycling from low to high and back again... each time getting more and more intense. My coworkers were all gone by 4:00 pm, and they left me alone to do complete mail server upgrades and mantenence. I am salaried, and do not get overtime, and I wasn't even the person who was supposed to be on-call and would typicaly be responsible for system maintenence. They wanted me to do it, because I know the system inside and out, backwards and forwards. I would have had no problem acting as a resource, heck last week was my on-call week. Nobody even offered to assist me, and any thing that needed to be done was tasked to me. It has taken a lot to not snap on people.

My emotional state has been... hazardous according to my family, so when I got home from work last night after all the garbage of the day I find my brother waiting for me. My family decided it was in my best interest to remove my direct access to medication, and items that could be used to do self harm (pills, drink, impliments...). I understand where they are comming from, and realize that they are worried about me. So here I am responsible for the entier hospital network, but can't even get my own meds to take.

I said a few choice words, and fummed for another 4 hours, just so that I could turn around and come back to work.

I am tired, cranky, hurt, and just plain fuming.

I can relate to... hang in there and good luck. I think we all need a hug today.