I couldn't protect a child! Why do I have to live with the fact that my ex made me into a monster?! I tried to get away...to protect a child, but he was too strong...he held me down, grabbed my wrist and forced me on that little girl! I hate him and I hate myself...I should've done more that kneeing him in the groin...I should've killed him! I should've killed myself! Now that little girl has to suffer, I have to suffer, but he doesn't suffer the pain we must endure!