I feel rotten. I vented at the wrong time. I should be shot. I am sorry lexicon78. I guess the best thing to do is take this user name away. I should just leave. Go back to the hole were i can from. I dont have any right to be here at all. If docjohn reads this i am fully willing to give up my name here. I am just that worthless to everyone here. I am worthless to this world. I know this is depression and its not suppost to be a suicide post but right now it doesnt seem that bad wanting to die. I know it will get beter. or at least it should. But im so worthless right now that i can see.

I wish i was dead right now... Cause it would be the best for you all.
But i wont die. why? Cause the goddess up there wont let me. So i will continue to live. Just as an invisible person.