I have stopped crying, I am feeling more stable. I have managed to get dressed and put on makeup and pull together the shell of me. I can look in the mirror and recognize myself again. In the meantime, I received a phone call from my boss and was finally forced to have a discussion regarding my leave from work. That's a good thing, now I can also put that to bed. It was tough - more tears were shed. As soon as she asked how I was, I immediately started to cry. I didn't want to do that. I didn't want to appear that vulnerable in front of my leader, although I suppose that on a personal note, it probably only validated why I am taking the leave in the first place...

Fow now, I am going to go out and try and salvage some of this beautiful afternoon while the sun is still shining and I feel okay. I am still shaky but hoping that getting out of the house for a while might take my mind off of things.

I would still welcome any advice anyone has to share...what do you do when the tears take over like that? How do you make it stop? What coping strategies do you use? I just want to feel better, I want my life back. I am so tired of living this way.