Yea sleep hit me for about three hours then I was up agan, on purpose I stayed up all day hoping I'd have no problem .. (no such luck...here I am again) anyway last night I cleaned the house, did some drawing and painting, wrote in my journal, worked in The Relaxation and Stress Reduction Workbook I just bought a new copy of, printed off some exercises from Nancy J Napiers website and then when I still wasnt settled I spent the rest of the night checking on my emails regarding a missing friend in new orleans and got the breath knocked out of me when someone said they thought they recognized her from one of my posts with the governments missing registrys. I went to where they saw a person matching my friends name and it was indeed my lost friend posting that she was safe and where her and her office has relocated to. So now Im contacting all the agencies that I had looking for her and letting them know she is safe and sound. I can now stop printing off pictures of new orleans and blowing them up to see if I see her in the crowds. Im pretty sure the rest of my sleeping problem is because ofnew memories will be trying to break through. It happens every year around this time. Even if my therapist was available I probably wouldn't call her for this. my not sleeping is not an emergency and if it ever comes to be one I have a back up therapist that I can call. Even though when my main therapist is around I don't call her for stuff like this it still makes me a bit keyed up when she isn't around, just those illogical what if's bouncing around.

I will get some sleep one way or another even if its with the companionship of sir benedryl which always knocks me out for abour 9 hours at a time.

Don't worry things will work out. Ive been through memory cycles many times so I know what to expect (flashbacks, nightmares, panic attacks and all that garbage) there are plans well in place for handling them.

You try and get some sleep too.