I know that I should be th most important in my life and I'm trying so hard to make that so, but so many people rely on me and when I say no they make me feel guilty somehow. I have pretty much had to stop talking to some of them because all they seem to want out of me is help all of the time

My bubble is slowly being created. I just can't hep but ask what's wrong when someone says they're not feeling great. No matter how i feel, I want to help and I know that needs to stop. I am trying my hardest to just concentrate on me.

Of course I want Connor in my life and of course my bubble includes Connor. But he needs to be selfish in a good way too... I don't wanna rey on him like others rely on me, but I can't seem to do this on my own at all. I'm finding it so hard

I really do feel alone where I'm living. I'm not in supported housing, I don't have people around me that I know as friends, I just have elderly people who yell at me for walking up the stairs after work or even before work and it's so lonely, so hard. Even just being able to hear people talking, music, whatever, would help but I don't even have that.

It is hard and yes, I know that I do have a job and I do have this flat, but I just feel empty because all the people who have loved me or w.e, have gone and I have no-one left.. That's what makes it so much worse.