Less strength does not equal the act of doing what you have thought of. I have been there, wanted to do something verry much, but didn't think I had Strength Enough. Well Guess what, I did because i didn't give up or give in to those urges. It does take a lot of effort to get through it but, think of it this way, When you get through this time, If there are next times, they will be easier to deal with. Just be glad that you don't have to deal with what you are dealing with and MOVING at the same time, and then tell me how you feel. Times are tough right now for lots of people, on PC and off PC. But the last thing I have to say is Read my signature, it has the power to help you to over come and gain some strength for even just a few minutes.