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I understand how you're feeling, I really do. It's like, if I feel better from taking a pill, am I really better or is it fake? I think the point isn't how you got to feeling better, it's that you got there. That's what matters.
And no matter how much you spiral out about this med, or any other, you won't know what the side effects will be until you try it. Contrary to what some other posters said, I took wellbutrin with little to no side effects, and I have a pre-existing anxiety disorder that could well have been triggered by it, but was not.
I'm not trying to convince you one way or the other as far as taking this medication, but I wish I could help you find some peace....