So I called her today, and we planned to meet at the semi-pro hockey game (I have season tickets), as it was her brothers birthday party. She ends up sitting one section over and one row down, close enough that we could have been the same party.

When she gets there she runs up and gives me a big hug, and then introduces me to everyone. The game starts and I went to my seat. First period ends and I go back to socialize (big deal for me).

There is someone sitting next to her now, that could have been family he looked older than me. They have an extra seat, due to someone leaving so I choose to sit with them. As I am taking my new seat, she introduces me to Tim... her boyfriend.

My anxiety levels were much lower today, and my mind was in a better place with my brain having slowed down a bit. I tuned my welbutrin today down to 300 from 450. However last night i took two xanax and slept a full night waking up refreshed for once.

I played it cool, and did not seem to show to much disappointment. We parted ways with a hug at the end of the game. So at this point, it looks like just friend as I really do not want to be the other guy if that was her intention.

I am handling it well, and had a friend to listen to what I had to say offering support. I decided with my supports input to call her tomorrow. I am not sure how yet, but better convey what I am really looking for. I am willing to have a new just friends relationship if for nothing more than to expand my network. It wouldn't hurt to have a female friend. However I do owe it to myself to settle the matter.

My intentions are not to interfere with a relationship, but to have a real relationship. I will take it as it goes, and hope I keep the current calm that I am feeling.