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I know that I do rely on him an awful lot and I'm trying my best not to because he needs his space too, but it's hard when he asks me to talk to him, tell him how I'm doing etc.
We have both decided that yes, in the future we will be getting back together. That's why he wants me to tell him how I'm doing because he wants to see the improvements in me and he's said he's seeing them already, even if I did have a particularly bad day/night yesterday.
What didn't hep was someone from work saying: "Hahaha. If you're like this when you're on your medication, what would you be like when you're off them? You'd be a bloody nightmare!! Hawhawhaw" and that really affected me because I already know that I'm a screw up, I don't need people to tell me that. He's also commented that my eyes look tiny without my glasses on and that hurt too. I already have issues with body image and how others see me...
But yeah. I know I can't rely on him too much and that I need to love myself. I am trying to do both of these and oving myself is incredibly hard, but I just hope that it'll get easier with time.
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