Thanks again every. Had some tough times yesterday and this morning keeping myself from obsessing over thinking I made a fool of myself at the interview. Temptation to self harm are very strong but so far I have resisted. What with not even being able to remember my former bosses name. Who does that? and... geesh. Enough already. Not going to rant about all those thoughts. Time to move on and let my pride and self criticism go. I am not who I was and as much as I miss her like Byz said I need to love myself for who I am today.

Thanks again everyone for the support and positive words. I appreciate it more than you can know. I have someone coming over to possibly lay claim on a kitten from the new litter of cuties that popped out of mamma cat almost 2 weeks ago. The sun is getting ready to show itself over the cliff and soon the garden will be calling my name. I'll retreat to it when the house chores are done. Keeping busy is a good thing.