It went ok. I'm going back in 2 weeks to talk to a T. They put me on some meds that I've been on before but not together. So we will see how it works. And I was able to talk about the SI-ing. But I'm more down now than anything. I can't eat cause if I do I get sick but I do eat a little something take my meds but other than that I just don't. And yes I know I need to eat but it force myself I get sick. And I'm so tired and have no motivation. I was like that anyways but its worse. And its making the thoughts worse too. But I just started taking them thursday night so I shouldn't be feeling this way should I? I just want the pain to go away. This panic attack I've had so far today has lasted all day and it is wearing me out. I trying to stay motivated cause me and my kids are up here visiting and my step dads restaurant. I have to be up here so they can watch me so I don't do anything to myself. Even though no one knows about the SI they do know about the "bad thought"