Man Lexicon.... I am so sorry you had to go through that.... I have a mom but she left me when I was 2 and never wanted anymore to do with me....throwed away like trash....you can cherish the thought that your mom was there for you and you were close and you knew she loved you....take comfort in that..... I would have much rather had what you had and lost it then to have never had it period....
again I am so so sorry about your mom....It has to hurt so bad losing her... your in my heart and prayers....and I wish I could reach through this screen and hug you personally.....take care