I've just been hysterically crying, so if I don't make much sense, please bear with me. I have Bipolar Disorder, panic and anxiety disorders and I am also an 11 years sober alcoholic.

I have lost pretty much everything in my life due to my Bipolar (and I had built up 3 tertiary courses, a great career and a home/mortgage of my own). But unfortubately 6/7 years of gross misprescribing by psychistrists for profit (I now know) and I lost everything and nearly lost my life as a result. Its hard enough surviving life threateing addiction and mental illness without your own physicians contributing contraidicated medication into the mix.

I am posting because I just watched The Hurricane with Denzel Washington, the story of a black man, a prize fighter, who was incorrected charged and convicted of murder in the 1960's and it was only with the persistence of new Canadian friends and lawyers that he got released after 19 years. (Bod Dylans's Hurricane is about this) I've seen the movie several times before.

His story is obviously not about addiction or mental illness. But when the story unfolded and the ultimate resolution of his freedom came about, it touched me in ways great movies do sometimes. In this case, for me, it is about a person pushed right to the edge of humanity and what it is to be human - and maintaining that humanity despite the odds, despite pressures that span years, decades even. And then it is about the fact that it is possible to endure despite unbelieveable and unlikely odds. It is also a about a person who did nothing to bring this situation on himself, but made the best of himself throughout. I really felt that commonality of experience.

When I break into hysterical crying at movies like in this case, it is, in fact, a good thing. My meds mean I can't often cry when I really need to and it is most often a movie or a book that will prompt me to cry - and I gain some release - which I definitely just have!! lol